sick of it

 </> my mind keeps telling me people in my past life are better than me because they have a stable job, friends, a social life, balance, tranquility, blah blah bullshit here bullshit there. i dont give a fuck and im getting sick of this lay conventionalism. inside me bears the brain of a revolutionary, my body and heart are designed to change the course of events, so why is it that i feel as if i frail in comparison to ordinary folk?

must be social engineering ... if people keep telling someone that theres nothing special about them, no one ever takes a chance on them, and his own family keeps reinforcing this message than it becomes near impossible to not fall. near but not impossible. for those who possess the fire within side like i do!

this is pretty cringe reading out loud but its important because it displays the importance of fundamental belief in ones' self to the detriment of others and .. benefit ..