panicking

 </> my mother is panicking due to the failure that i have become. i dont mean that how its written. what i mean is that i have lived my life in such way that it is revealing how my family treats each other becomes public. so when i could not finish my law school i took it out on my mothers house which led her to move to london. but having no real source of income and no longer a tenant is met with a strange duality; remain losing money in london or return home to my company. the inevitability of age points to the fact that she will execute the latter. but on my terms, and its the my terms part she isnt liking so she will continue to delay the inevitable but stalling in london. but we both know thats not sustainable. and fundamentally, iihave given up everything to gain nothing. she nothing, to gain everything.