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 </> years of having no job or source of income that i can fully depend on have me contemplating the option now. But that's precisely the issue. Whenever I think about it i reach the same outcome. That is, not to do the things required for ascertaining a job or source of income. I am on the tightrope, dancing between jumping into society and remaining in place. but in place seems pretty good. and it only seems to be improving. so i don't know. but i do . .  . . .  keep going .. banzai tenno hekai ..